goodness, whatever happened to leading a simple life? i look at people's cv's and resumes, so accomplished in such a short amount of time, who can compete? all in all, who is grading us on our lives? shouldn't it be ourselves? wait a min, if that's true, am i being too hard on myself? or is it that i just realize how little i've done in this world besides consuming oxygen?

boo...as you can see from consecutive entries, i'm sort of in a blah blah period of trying to determine what the heck i should with my life and who is willing to help me with getting to wherever i'm supposed to doing...

always a problemo: letters of recs, i've been worrying about them since freshman year of college.....who actually is qualified to write letters of rec? am i being too stringent in my choice of reccomenders such that i don't have enough to apply to grad school? i always thought and still think logically so, that you are really good friends with whoever you are going to ask for such a letter...but i've seen some people ask profs they've never really talked to for letters...and of course all profs say yes but it obviously won't be a good one...
sigh...i wish i'd gone to more office hours, but now i realize that even if i had, it'd sort of be the same problem, i don't want to ask profs whom i don't connect with for letters..specially those rude and noncaring profs...so i guess my problem is that i've met so few profs i actually really really cared about...
for instance, i was really counting on this quarter for two letters from my stats profs, li and sabatti, i'm not connecting with li, it seems like that he doesn't care that much and sabatti is out on maternity leave....not enough time to get to know them...

i hope everything works out, it always have, fortunately for me...but still can't really extrapolate the good times ahead from the good stuff that's happened in the past